Dark Depraved Desires

Somewhere in the twilight
Of the darkest moments
I crave a depravity
That my heart does not want.
My soul cries out
For the fears of the flesh,
Yet my mind battles it away,
Telling me I shouldn't divulge.
A wild beast,
Trapped in an invisible steel cage,
Despising being caught,
Yet needing it all the same.
Fear of what I could become,
If I were to take part
Overwhelms me,
Keeping me from my deepest sins.
The battle between my logical self
And my heart-bound self,
Pale in comparison
To the battle raging
Between my heart and mind
And the untamed,
Depraved soul of a creature
That lurks in the darkened pits of my soul.
Perhaps I should allow my soul to win once,
To ravage the desires so deep within me
To sate the hunger that grows.
Yet the fear again comes to me,
What if my soul is not satisfied,
And the darkness envelops me,
Consuming me
Making the cravings for the blood of my sins
Grow beyond my mind and heart's control?
So I leash the beast,
Letting it gnaw on the restraints
Until it grows too strong to contain,
Setting it free to do as it will,
To hunt and to kill,
The darkest desires,
The darker sins,
That live within me.

-(c) Kathryn Keep- 2007